Who am I talking about? The one and only God in Heaven of course. The one who sent His son to die for you and me. Youth camp just ended 2 days ago.
1st morning wasn't very significant for me, but still Pastor Kueh preached a good msg. It was about God's timing in our lives. Chronos, Kairos and Pleroma. Let's focus on the word Kairos. It means opportunity. God has given me lotsa opportunities to serve Him in a greater way but most of the time I get distracted by the things of the world and in the end God would tell me "Alright, i'll prepare you a little longer, I see that you're not ready for bigger things yet" Lotsa prophecies have been spoken over my life, some are quite specific even, telling me what I'm gonna do in a few yrs time and all that. Not gona share about them here. anyway, it reminded me of how easily I sometimes give up opportunities to serve Him, to glorify Him in my daily lives. No not just big things like going on missions or preaching to thousands. but it's the small things like saying sorry to ppl that i've hurt, forgiving ppl that hurt me, loving the annoying ppl in my life, cleaning up my room as told by my mom, cleaning my car, managing my expenses, being patient while driving, controlling my temper. ALL THE SMALL THINGS~~!!! God always puts situations in my life for me to practice what I often preach/share to ppl about, things that I was taught before. But sometimes it just seems so hard. Why? because my eyes wasn't fixed on God. Most of the time I just wanted to satisfy myself. Here comes the next word, Pleroma. I believe right now, that I've finally understood about my selfishness, and come to my senses that i have been missing the opportunities God has given me, it's time to start walking right with God once again. Pleroma means the full time period of something. I believe that now is the time that God wants me to put more effort into serving Him and begin to see Him at work. I can see His hands upon EmBaCY, I can see His hands upon the Saturday night service, I can see His hands upon my uni. I can see His plans so clearly now. How come? Cause my eyes are finally fixed on Him, totally.
No no not yet i'm not done. Praise God for Pastor Daniel who shared such powerful msges every single night of the camp. The 1st night was about praising God at all times in my life, yes even including the bad times. He shared on how his unborn baby was almost taken away. When he heard the news from his wife, still he praised God and thanked Him for whatever was happening. and guess what! God saw his faithfulness and brought that baby back to life! Of course he shared a lot of other examples, but my point is, I should be thankful to God at all times!!! you know, most of the time i would just put the blame on God when things go wrong in my life. there's a question that always go through my mind when something goes wrong. and that is "why God... Why u do this to me???". How irresponsible huh? most of the time i got myself into trouble, but i still blame God. It's so easy to thank God when things are going well, but what about the bad times? Now, I choose to praise God, under all circumstances. and yes i mean ALL! so don't call me crazy. even if i am, i'm crazy for Him. and oh ya, dear if you're reading this, there's something i need to tell you. I never really thanked God for you until that night when i called you after the night session. Cause all this while, at the back of my mind i would still be telling myself that my relationship with you was just out of my own will, though i constantly remind myself that it's not right to think that way. It was only until that night, that thought finally left me. I meant it when i said it. most of the campers would say that the final day was the most significant, however, for me it was the very 1st day. :) Honestly, I was very distracted while preparing for this camp. I did not even remember to book the sound system for the camp until only 4 days before the event. And I even forgot about the lcd projector and the presenter program. And i also forgot to bring a few cables up to santubong. But hey, praise God for that too huh? A good lesson to learn. :) And also, to be honest, I have been rather distracted by my current relationship. For those who know me well enough, they would know how easily my focus on God sways when I'm emotionally involved with someone. God gave me such a wonderful girlfriend who loves God as much as I do, but still I lost my focus on Him, in the end, avoidable arguments had to happen. Still, I praise God for these, cause it taught me how important patience is, how important her feelings are and how important it is to fix my eyes on God. For the Word tells us in Matthew 6:33 to seek ye first the kingdom of God and all these things shall be given to you. and by things, God meant EVERYTHING.
As a worship leader, it's just amazing to see how God sweeps through the place and touch ppl's hearts while they are worshipping Him. His presence was so tangible right from the very 1st session. I was so worried that God wouldn't move cause I know i myself hvnt been praying enough and preparing myself enough. Others might think i've been praying enough, but to me, no. Cause i did not meet my own standard. But as soon as the 1st session started with the praise and worship. I just felt the peace of God coming upon me and assuring me that He would move among us, regardless whether I prayed enough or not, coz the camp is about Him, not me. It was His standard that he looked at when i prayed, not my own. Praise God. Anyway, it was amazing to see so many ppl who've never experienced God before experiencing God in such a real way. Ppl who have not spoken in tongues before were being filled by the Holy spirit and began to speak in tongues, the heavenly language. The fire of God came upon so many of them and almost all of them were on the floor shouting, screaming, crying and weeping away as God does His work in their lives. It was just truly awesome to see how lives and hearts are being changed before my eyes. Not that i've never seen it before, but this camp just felt very different. Those that went for previous camps would know what I'm talking about. It was also very encouraging to see the bonding between the campers, especially among our own church young ppl. Honestly I was rather worried about the lack of communication and unity between the young ppl in EBC, but God took that worry away through this camp. Praise God, again. God moved in such a powerful way that even ppl who never dared to open their mouths or lift up their hands to worship Him in freedom were set free and are now going all out for Him. Ppl who've never dared to pray for others suddenly had the courage to pray for ppl and made them realise that when you're praying for the person, just let the Holy Spirit guide you and there's no need to cook up nice words. There were some kids who were freaked out when they saw how God touched some of the ppl and began to weep or scream or tremble. they were freaked out alright. But hey, they too experienced God after Uncle Mervyn explained to them about the manifestations that happens when God moves. some would weep, some would laugh, some scream, some roll on floors, some crawl, etc. too many to mention. God moves in different ways. I remember i was turning round and round on the floor on my back like an overturned turtle last yr when God touched me. I guess God started my breakdancing talent there. lol. nah la kidding. The fire of God was just so strong and hot that i couldnt control my body. This yr too, I was on the floor, rolling about, like as if i was really on fire. But yeah, the fire was spiritual fire. it didn't hurt, but it sure burns way better than real fire. fire purifies. get what i mean? :)
I also wanna thank all the committee members. Especially those in the worship ministry, whom I'm suppose to be in charge of. I thank you, Jason Tan, Ben, Jason Lau, Mark, Priscilla, Grace, Gloria, Kana, Hannah, Caleb, Samson Tan, Crystal, Tania, Anders, Letitia, Cordelia and Chara (did i miss out anyone?) for putting up with my forgetfulness and ignorance and bad temper. I'm sorry if i've offended any of you by glaring at you when you play the wrong chords/notes or sing the wrong words/notes. I know it's a bad habit of mine, i'm sorry. I will do my best to improve myself. And i wanna thank you all for the hardwork y0u've put in throughout this whole camp. Thanks Jason Tan for not complaining though you were playing and singing in every session. Thanks Gloria for not complaining even though i always seem to put you on the bass only. I'll try to put you more on guitars. And also thanks to all the committee for doing such a great job in making this camp happen. The games, the registration, the worship, the multimedia, the ushers, the ppl who helped carry stuff... everything was just great. Great job young ppl! All the glory, honour, power and praise to God.
Lots more to say about the camp, but i'm tired now. Still waiting for pictures from Uncle Kester. Shall post up pictures of the camp soon. Til then. God bless whoever's reading this. Ciao.
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